I gotta admit, the passed few weeks haven’t been the best for me.  As the year comes to an end, commitments increase and work load peaks.  That was expected, but God also works in a miraculous way that whenever you are busy catching up with life, all the unnecessary hassles come up – my dryer was leaking (I didn’t even know that was possible), my toilet bowl clogged, and my shower curtain rod fell when my roommate was showering.  These awesome incidents happened when my landlord went travelling, so we had to handle them ourselves. Besides that, my careless mind decided to lose my second compass card and bruise my right knee for Idk-what reason, and the list of unfortunate events goes on. 

The stress has been taking a toll on my body.  My acne is getting worse than how it already was, my migraine came back and lasted for days, I was unable to focus in my work and my emotion was in a constant roller coaster ride. The worst thing was, 2 nights ago, I went to a party in hopes of having some fun and destress, but ended up puking my guts out (for the entire night and the day after) after a small amount of drinks. I swear, I’m not as lightweight usually.

I may not be a doctor, but I know my body.  I know that I hadn’t been taking a good care of myself. I hadn’t been sleeping enough, working out a lot or eating healthily.  Who has time to do groceries or even laundry when they have like, 3 reports and 2 presentations and a project due on the same day anyways? #DirtyUnderwearsFTW 😛  While stress can be a good thing that gives us a burst of extra energy and focus when we’re playing competitive sport or writing exams, it actually affects us terribly when it’s continuous and not taken care of.  This is a TED-ed video I came across about how chronic stress can affect brain size, its structure, and how it functions, right down to the level of our genes.  I HIGHLY RECOMMEND you to watch it, because it blew my mind when I learned the facts. 

It feels counterintuitive that whenever we’re stressed, we’re supposed to get more sleep, eat healthier, and work out more, because we feel like we don’t have enough time to do any of those things. However, this is where we need to understand our mistake.  We should gain control over stress, and not let it control us.  After my full day of hogging the toilet bowl throwing my guts out yesterday, I managed to force myself to take a break today. I watched a movie, took a good long bath, did my groceries (finally! lots of veges and fruits again!), talked to my sister and my mom, and I feel so much better now; not just physically, but mentally as well.

Some might think that admitting about stress in public makes one appear weak, but I am more concerned about being true to my health and sharing my real life experience. Different people has different threshold for handling stress, some might be genetically weaker, some might be having chronic stress, some might have posttraumatic stress… There’re all sorts of circumstances that could lead to stress and burnout, and it is important to prevent it before it is too late. No matter what, personal health and wellbeing should always be priority.

Things were tough but I’m hustling hard, I’m sure you can do it too! 😉


P/S: I do wear clean underwears.